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Friday, May 28, 2004

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This is not the end, maybe i'm juz taking a break from here & continue my way there.

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Tuesday, May 18, 2004

Once In Every 365 Days

Happy Birthday mum~! Hope she'll have the best of health & wealth :) My dad ordered a new series cake, a pumpkin flavored cake & it was delivered at 9.10am...where the time range is supposed to be between 9am-3pm. When the delivery arrived, all of us were still in bed *yawn* hmm...pumpkin cake...no, its definitely not in a shape of a pumpkin, but its quite an orangey cake though. Whenever any of my family member's bday arrives, we'll usually have the cake cut when all family member's around at home. H/w, i'm glad that KH dropped by :) since noon & therefore, we got to try out the 'new' cake in advance~

My first thought of it was like, "eww pumpkin~ can i not eat it?!" well, i dun like pumpkin at all. But its my mum's bday cake, no choice had to try it out. Unexpectedly, this cake tastes nice, the pumpkin flavour ain't that strong & it tastes abit like cheese cake(my fave) hehe. Due to my dad's last minute OT tonite, we can't eat out at our fave food place but to order pizza etc. Had a really full dinner :P Btw, we got a card for my mum. Anyway, i feel like today has passed quite quickly. The weather's really terrible these days, can't stand it, got to on aircon these nites to bed, sometimes even in the day when i'm in the living room. When will this weather improve?? A song juz came across my mind when talking abt this bad weather - Blame it on the weatherman(a nice one from b*witched)

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Monday, May 17, 2004

Joblesshood

I've quit my job today, which i've only been working for abt 2 to 3 days. I juz dun wanna go to the office everyday to pick up the phone & keep calling... Gd commission but no basic pay, ain't tat easy to earn bucks i guess. Thought i could juz try out this job coz i have some telemarketing experience, but thru this job, i juz realise that i'm really not keen on phone calling anymore. Tracy's a nice team leader. Some ppl quit the job without a word or juz walk out & left a note for her. I'm juz totally not comfortable with it by doing that to tracy, so we approached her, talked it out, then quit.

This morning, i've been to ikea before going to the office & jason doesn't seem that nice like how shanti has told me abt. He's actually kinda stern but offered us a job position which i'm not so confident of doing. He gave us some time to consider & to call him back. In the end, i backed out. I think admin or data entry jobs are juz rare nowadays. I juz got to see wat else i can do... Btw, met a 'one-day-friend' thru this tele job on fri & sat. Only really got to talk to her when she sat beside me on sat. A friendly & funny lady, shanti's the one who offered to give me the ikea's no. H/w, thought she gonna come to work today but too bad, think she got her Shell job & not coming back...got no contact no. of hers, dun think i'm gonna see her again coz we're not goin back to the office anymore.

Posted at 11:18 pm by skyicez
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Sunday, May 16, 2004

Shattered Ice

I don't understand,
Juz don't understand.
Is there sunshine through the rain?
You're the only one who can ease my pain.

Cold rain turns to snow,
I've lost the warmth i'm longing for.

With crystal shard from the eye,
Silence accompanies me tonight.

Drifting in & out of dream,
I keep on searching for serenity.
Escaping from this empty space,
My next destination is always you.

Cycle of emotions rule over me,
With much unsettled mixed feelings.
Let the worries be blown by this wind,

Loving you is still how i'm feeling.

Lotsa things happened. From my 2nd day of working on saturday, lunch @ Jack's Place with ex-colleagues, staying-over & a 'mentally-draining' talk @ raffles place. hmm...there's no place like my bed...

Posted at 11:54 pm by skyicez
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Friday, May 14, 2004

Same Old Brand New Job

First day of a new job. Doing telemarketing again...haiz~! but tis time it doesn't require selling but sure it does require self-motivation to earn bucks. The environment's quite slack actually...playing 98.7fm in the background. I'm already quite sick of making phone calls to strangers, though got a few deals today but i guess the customers will all end up backing out. No confidence in the deals i make. I think i might not stay in this job for long...maybe? i dunnoe.

I think i can't get used to the 'normal' time of getting to bed & waking up. Already so used to sleeping at wee hours like 3am & waking up at 10-11am ( j'hdsucn omled )...gonna change & tune back my body clock! Anyway, had Fish & Co...we were really hungry coz liqing's late but had the seafood platter which eventually filled our hunger.

Everyone seems to be on holidays now, poly students hols, undergrads hols & sec sch students exams are over. I've been slacking & couldn't find a proper job asap...but now its like juz kinda lucky tat i've found a job.

(I'm still feeling kinda bad & guilty abt it over the phone this evening. Although its fine now, but i can't help it, and juz feel afraid. I want to spend more time but i truly understand your(kh) effort in making things work out too...)

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Wednesday, May 12, 2004

Rockin' Into Happy Hours

Cool, another new dish to add to my 'recipe list' today :) my mum did the frying & my sis + I did the preparation etc *yummy* learnt it from the TV show we watched.

Last nite, i din have the time to update my blog, really sleepy then. Since the day i went to pulau ubin, i haven been waking up so early in the morning...until yesterday. Had a real intimidating incident in the morning. Bought lunch back for my family on my way home aft the incident. So tired & sleepy coz the previous nite i slept when its into dawn, but no choice, still went for a sec sch clique gathering at orchard in the evening.

Supposedly there're 6 of us but ended up, 2 of them din turn up coz of some misfortune & unforseen circumstances :( Well, had our dinner @ Hard Rock Cafe. Mel & i been there but can't rem the way exactly & liya, qiujin have nvr been there. H/w, wif the help of wen ning, we managed to reach our destination~ We're surprised to see jasmine working there & she's friendly when she saw us. We took quite some time discussing wat to order & where to draw $ coz the rest of them needs more cash. The atmosphere was quite nice for us to be chatting & dining at the cushioned seats, with the dimmed lights & candles on the tables. Not forgetting to mention tat liya's got her way/skill of scraping & eating the corn!

We waited for 9pm coz its their happy hours & drinks are more worth it. So we shared a jug. Enjoyed the live band. There's a male singer accompanied wif a female singer, with a live band of coz. The first few songs aren't really our cup of tea until songs like Someday & some other songs which we know of caught our attention. The keyboard player & the male lead singer both got a nice voice & the female singer has a powerful voice. Think they can reg for Singapore Idol hehe. There's a part where the diners got to get up on stage to sing a song or two. Wow, most of them got the standard except for a song where a malay guy sings his heart out trying to sound like Creed. But actually most of us shut off his voice & got attracted by the groovy beat of the music...which was played by a cute drummer~ well, the drummer is tat malay guy's fren, one of the diners in HRC.

We finally had the opportunity to catch up wif the ongoings of our lives...its really hard to organise an outing for the 6 of us to be present, ever since NYDC, if i'm not wrong. We had a couple of drinks, my cheeks got all 'heated up' again & they could see tat my face turned all red even under the candlelight. Realised my neck's all red too frm the drinks when i looked into the mirror. haha but i'm definitely well & sober, juz turns red easily whenever i drink :)

qiujin left b4 us first. While the 3 of us were walking to the mrt station, we realised its already 11.50pm or so. When we reached the station, we were relieved tat we managed to catch the last train. H/w, there's this damn annoying announcement which repeats itself 2-3 times per min for 12mins!! When one's tired, sleepy & had to put up wif this nonsense, its kinda 'torturing' yea? haha. Maybe nxt time we shldn't catch the last train. The road from the mrt to my house is really quiet & there's noone in sight right after i crossed the junction :( scary~ but my mum went down to the void deck & fetch me. hehe.

Posted at 11:57 pm by skyicez
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Sunday, May 09, 2004

A Day of Love <3

How did you celebrate Mothers' Day? I din really celebrate it. In passed years, sometimes did, like go for a meal but in other times juz give her prezzies. Today i make it a point to stay at home to accompany my mum, and to piece the pics & poetry together....haha. My mum learned a new dish from her fren some time ago & decided to try it out today. So i help her out & learning at the same time (but i did most of the cooking :P). Hmm...for both of us, this is our 'first time' in cooking this dish~ hehe coz usually she teaches me dishes which she already cooked umpteen times b4. Quite interesting for both of us having to do something for the first time together & the outcome's not bad.

Haiz, although she always nag, but she's always willing & ready to do things for us & be there for us. One of the most unforgettable moment of my life is when she spends all her energy & time juz to take care of me after my operation last year, where i had to stay at home for a month. Yea she's my mum, maybe some think she ought to do this, but can't take her for granted rite. It was really tough for us & i have to miss sch for quite some time...haiz, can't blame my results on this, can i? nah. Sometimes feel so bad after arguing wif her but those words of apology or mushy words juz don't come easily when it comes to family. I really realised & found out lotsa things abt the ppl around me during tat tough time of mine. Hmm...anyway, Happy Mothers' Day mum!~

Posted at 11:43 pm by skyicez
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Saturday, May 08, 2004

Disorder...Not

Disorder	Rating
Paranoid:	Moderate
Schizoid:	Low
Schizotypal:	Moderate
Antisocial:	Low
Borderline:	Moderate
Histrionic:	Moderate
Narcissistic:	Low
Avoidant:	High
Dependent:	High
Obsessive-Compulsive:	Low
Personality Disorder Test--

Juz took the test & apparently it shows that i'm highly avoidant and dependent...haha accurate? yea to a certain extent. Sometimes avoidant of problems in my life and usually dependent on my loved ones. This test's juz to kill time :)

My mum wants me to take care of my own lunch today coz she'll be out. Ended up, i had a bowl of hot & spicy noodles. Its really spicy but its gd~ There's this function below at the badminton court for the CC members for an early celebration for mother's day. Its nice of them to organize this & most of them are senior citizens. But its getting on my nerves when they are singing their oldies out loud in the mic! Its so loud that i can hardly watch my tv anymore. This galling moment lasted til abt 10pm. *phew* peace at last...however, its sweet of them to present each table a cake wif a candle lit on it, erm...but they were singing a birthday song when presenting the cakes...?!?! haha tot its for mother's day & not bday? Anyway, off to try out my new game, be back blogging tml~

Posted at 11:14 pm by skyicez
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Friday, May 07, 2004

There's something abt our needs...

Alright, whats up wif these 2 theories u might wonder...Someone mentioned to me abt the theories & when i read it, I'm quite interested in it. Its not juz abt theories, its in some subjects that people study nowadays. Maybe in psychology? I'm not too sure though. So there goes, I've read it, summarized it out & posting it up for ppl who might juz have the time to take a look at this.

Maslow’s Hierarchy Theory
It states that human beings are motivated by unsatisfied needs, and one must fulfill the lowest level before the next level is aroused. However, the levels fulfilled vary between individuals. People are basically trustworthy, self-protecting, and self-governing and they tend toward growth & love. Although there’re human wars, murder, deceit, etc. Violence is not in human nature. Violence and other evils occur when human needs are thwarted. In other words, people who are deprived of lower needs such as safety may defend themselves by violent means.

According to Maslow, there are general types of needs (physiological, safety, love, and esteem) that must be satisfied before a person can act unselfishly. He called these needs "deficiency needs." As one desire is satisfied, another pops up to take its place.

Physiological

Physiological needs are our very basic needs such as air, water, food, sleep, sex, etc. When these are not satisfied we may feel sickness, irritation, pain, discomfort, etc.

Safety

Safety needs have to do with establishing stability and consistency in a chaotic world. We need safety, security & protection from danger. Well, it's juz like having a sense of security with my family or the protection from law & order.

Love

Next is social love & friendship, like having my family, friends & KH. Humans have a desire to belong to groups: clubs, work groups, religious groups, family, gangs, etc. We need to feel loved (non-sexual) by others, to be accepted by others.

<3 The greatest thing you’ll ever learn is just to love and be loved in return ~ from Moulin Rouge <3

Esteem

Self-esteem results from competence or mastery of a task. This refers to the need of self respect, status needs, prestige & reputation.

Self-actualization

The need for self-actualization is "the desire to become more and more what one is, to become everything that one is capable of becoming.” In other words, is to achieve one self potential.

McClelland’s Acquired Needs Theory

It states that every individual has 3 basic types of needs or drives. Their need of achievement, the need of power, the need of affiliation.

Achievement

A person with high achievement need tends to excel in competitive environment & enjoys challenges thrive on performance in complex and stimulating environments. Like situations where independence responsibility & autonomy prevail exhibits an entrepreneurial attitude.

Power

A person with a strong need of power desires to influence & controls others. This type of ppl has a strong sense of responsibility for control of others. They are more comfortable in executive decision making. More suited to manage others than an achiever.

Affiliation

A person with a strong need of affiliation has the desire to associate others in a friendly environment. These ppl prefer a friendly participative work environment. Interaction is highly valued by this type of people. Though they does not contribute to effective management, they provide a more conducive atmosphere for the subordinates.

The theory states that all 3 needs exist in all of us BUT at any time only 1 need will dominate. Our needs change depend on the person's experience, culture & family upbringing.

Posted at 11:33 pm by skyicez
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Wednesday, May 05, 2004

*~Fate~*

Many things in life depend on fate, don't they? So maybe sometimes we just don't need to be so hard on ourselves & should just take it easy. However, can one depends on fate & destiny only? People might not be taking things in life seriously then. *shrugs*

Fate brings people together, whether the love or feelings last or not. If there's fate, no matter how far we are, we will always find each other. Fate changes the lives of people, leaving them with either happiness or sadness. When you meet someone, feelings can be so special with a unique connection...and sometimes, fate can force two people apart mercilessly. You & I maybe from totally different backgrounds & even from different parts of the world, but fate brings you to me. Being part of the family or part of the bunch of friends around, fate plays its role. My family & friends mean alot to me, as well as my love life. All in life is fated with no exception - death. Maybe fate & destiny are intertwined, guiding us down the paths wefre meant to take.

Fate decides who we meet but we have to learn to cherish & treasure our loved ones. Therefore, there's a possible thing called 'forever' or 'eternity'. Regrets are painful & it sometimes hurts so much that one loses his faith in love or in life. 'Never to realize how regretful or how hurtful you're feeling only after the loved one has left you.' That's what I've always believe in. I've learnt, regret of the things I've yet to do or give when my loved one(grandma) was around. The worst thing isn't crying over what you've lost but it's sobbing upon losing when you realize you didn't cherish the moments you had and by that time, there wouldn't be any turning back & one's got to continue the journey of life with this painful regret...forever. Will one wants to regret not showing & telling the other party that he/she loves the other? In a relationship, fear of rejection may hinders the way. But when fate comes & destiny holds, take the chance & do the things one will never regret doing. Fate comes & goes, you'll never know whether it might come to you again.

FaTe dEciDeS wHo U mEeT.... DeStiNy DeCideS hOw u MeEt..... CheMisTRy BoNds PpL tOgeTHeR... And LoVe = FaTe + DeStiNy + CheMisTRy

Posted at 11:40 pm by skyicez
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